I am Beth or the Big Blue Mess or just a mess of any color depending on the day.  I am also a Texan, which is a random fact, but years of indoctrination within the Texas educational system (yes, despite what you’ve heard, there actually is one – where we learnt countin’ and word stuff) force me to list this as part of my identity.  I also think there’s a clause on my birth certificate.

The Big Blue Mess started as a group effort on Blogger involving several friends holding my hand encouraging me to write more.  Blame them.  They also say things like, “you’re funny!” Like I said before, blame them. Consider this blog as a form of appeasement that you accidentally stumbled onto.

The name came from my ex-husband who used the term to kindly describe one of my beautiful artistic attempts in blue.  Bless his little heart, we’ll miss his critiques.

But the name does fairly accurately describe most creative things I do – they’re sometimes messy (euphemism for “disaster”), unpolished, and can almost always stand improvement.  That’s my writing and The Big Blue Mess in a nutshell.

I’d like to think the blog, by and large, is a humorous site documenting my day-to-day (or sometimes month-to-month) shenanigans. For the most part that’s true – that’s usually what drives my writing. However, a few years ago my husband, my favorite person, my best-friend, and the person I had been with for 17 years, passed away at the age of 40 which has its own impact on these posts. You’ll see it from time-to-time.

A big thanks to all of my friends who helped make this site happen – who let me pick their brains, who held my hand, and who stroked my ego enough to make me think this was a good idea (see aforementioned blaming of them).

Thank you for dropping by. I’m absolutely humbled that you would do so.

9 thoughts on “About

  1. Michael says:

    I like your posts. The way you post them is really wonderful. So happy blogging Beth.

  2. Plan on enjoying you. Thanks for letting me know you’re around and writing. Don’t Mess With Texas!

    • Beth says:

      That’s quite an honor! Among my favorite parts of the week is seeing an email that begins “All Write: [New Post]…” in my mailbox. I greatly enjoy reading your work.

  3. Just to say I’ve nominated you for the 7 x 7 Link Award. Congrats.. you’ll fine the details here http://maturestudenthanginginthere.wordpress.com/2012/01/30/an-award-from-iceland/

    I don’t know if you ‘do’ the awards thing, and if you don’t then I completely understand. However you blog often makes me smile so I though of you when I was nominating.

  4. Janie Cook says:

    Beth, I am reading your blog on September 26th . . . and am so grateful for your honesty, your courage to speak out and your loving words about Jay. I completely identify with your stunned awareness, your experience of being avoided, your fierce empathy for the struggle Jay experienced and obviously your support for his recovery. The anger and harsh rudeness you described is also so familiar !!! Pretending to feel anything more acceptable just was not possible for me. So thank you.
    Words matter . . . talk saves people . . . and your courage is contagious.

    • Beth says:


      Thank you so very much for your kind words; they touched me deeply. I truly feel that the more we talk about our experiences, the more acceptable it becomes in terms of how to approach survivors in mourning. It’s my hope that the next person who suffers such a loss will find a world that sees them, acknowledges them, and treats them like they would any other person who has suffered a loss. Our loss is just as real as anyone else’s, and we deserve to be embraced/comforted by our community – not shunned – not treated as if we have done something bad or shameful or that the person we lost has done so either.

      I wish you all the best on your healing journey. If you’re in the Austin area and would like to walk with us for the Out of the Darkness Walk on November 2nd, we’d gladly welcome you with open arms.

      — Beth

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